A change of venue

Hello there, I am now posting here:

  http://www.ozgeekin.com/ 

Please come over and say hi ;)

Do it! /Harekete gec!

 

Steven Pressfield/ War of Art

Icimizdeki yetenegi ortaya cikarmadikca, herkese zarar veriyoruz. O nedenle harekete gec! Yaraticiligini ortaya cikar! Kimsen o ol! :)

A Break/ Tatil

Söll Austria
Oh nature, nature, nature. I have been missing you SO much! I felt so much gratitude today and was drunk by the beauty of you. I love you :)

The ego /Ego

Biking from work to home. Loving Belin in every action// Isten eve bisikletle giderken. Berlin'de her aksiyonu seviyroum!


Awareness excercises, according to Chögyam Trungpa, should not be detached from action, but also should not be on the action. Should come through the action. Amazing isn't it? I interpret this as becoming whatever you are doing at the moment. Not watching what you are doing through your ego's eye, not thinking about the next thing you will be doing, not thinking but just doing. Not doing things through your ego is so hard. I can understand that the ego is there to protect me, the reason we evolved and I exist might be because of the ego, but do we need protection? From what? If we practice compassion, and see things as they are, there is a knowledge waiting for us that everything is as it is, and everything will be as it is, neither interpretation nor protection is needed...

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Chögyam Trungpa'ya gore farkindalik antremanlari eylemden ayri olmamali, ama eylem uzerine de olmamali. Ne guzel soylemis! Bu sabah tekrar tekrar metroda bu paragrafi okuyordum. Yani, o an yaptigimiz sey haline gelmek. Ego'nun devamli yorum yapan, izleyen halinden cikmak. Ego'yu bir kenara birakmak cok zor, cunku bizi koruyan bir yapiya sahip. Ama bizi neden koruyor? Belki evrimsel surecte ihtiyacimiz var ve bizi bu gun burada yapan sey o. Ancak kendilingen gelen sefkat ve merhamet calismalari yapinca, goruyoruz ki her sey neyse o ve her sey ne o olacaksa o olacak. Ve de aslinda ne bu evrenin bir yoruma ihtiyaci var, ne de bizim bir seylerden korunmaya...

Surfacing out / Su yüzüne cikmak

How can one be oneself? How do you let all come out without resisting? Let the flow of life carry you? Are your shoulders relaxed? Why do we keep frowning?


If you have a strong analytic mind, it's even harder to let go, be in your body..Let the future and past be and just be in the now. I tend to analyze my each moment over and over, even analyze why I am analyzing it, even analyze why I analyze why I analyze... you get the idea. My loved ones sometimes call me "double processor". It's exhausting! Now, I practice more and more being in the now and it's a feeling I never felt before. Not the happiness and satisfaction I feel when I worked hard and got the result, it's the pure joy. When I focus on my body, by way of spontaneous meditations when jogging, when waiting for the kettle to boil, I simply direct my awareness to my body parts, and any part will work, and, the more I practice, I can even feel the joy of kidneys :).. Did you ever try that, just being in there, not thinking but just feeling?


It's easy and hard at the same time. It's hard to maintain this state for a long time, and sometimes I find myself postponing being in the now...How ironic. But with lots of self forgiveness and just by realizing that there is nothing else but "now", the awareness stays with me more and more. And I believe that's how one is being oneself. By not trying to control the future and by not dwelling on the past, the self just reveals itself.. just like that...

Photo  from a swim day in Schlachtensee, one of favourite places in Berlin.

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Insan nasil kendisi olur? Nasil karsi koymadan her seyin akip gitmesine izin veriririz? Hayatin akisinin bizi tasimasina.. Omuzlarin rahat mi? Neden kaslarimizi catip duruyoruz?


Eger guclu bi muhakeme yetenegi olanlardansaniz, hayatin akisina birakmak, gelecegi ve gecmisi birakip vucudun kendisini hissetmek ve simdide olmak iyice zorlasiyor. Ben herseyin uzerine dusunmeye pek meyilliyimdir. Neden o konunun uzerine dusundugumu, sonra neden neden o konunun uzerine dusundugumu vs. vs. Bu bazen benim icin inanilmaz yorucu durduramadigim bir surec oluyor. Simdilerde, gittikce daha cok simdide olma egzersizleri yapiyorum ve daha once hic hissetmedigim seyleri hissediyorum. Bir seyin sonucu gelen mutluluk degil de, saf neseyi.. Tek yaptigim sey, kosarken, caydanligin kaynamasini beklerken vucudumun herhangi bir yerine odaklanmak ve oradaki canliligi hissetmek. Bu kendiliginden gelen meditasyonu yaptikca bazen bobreklerimin bile nesesini hissederken buluyorum kendimi :) Boyle bir meditasyonu hic denediniz mi, sadece orada olmak, hic bir sey dusunmeden?


Bu hem zor hem de kolay. Bu durumu muhafaza etmek biraz zor, ve bazen kendimi simdide olmayi ertelerken buluyorum... Ne kadar ironik.. Ancak bol bol kendini affederek ve simdiden baska hic bir gercegin olmadigini farkederek, bu farkindalik gittikce daha cok benimle kaliyor. Ve sanirim iste bu insanin kendi olmasi. Gelecegi kontrol etmeyi ve gecmise saplanip kalmayi birakinca bu kendi denen sey kendiliginden ortaya cikiyor...

Fotograf Berlin'de en sevdigim mekanlardan biri olan Schlachtensee'den. Guzel bir aksamustu yuzmezinden.. 

Space- Occupy your body. / Mekan- Vucudun Isgali

 I taught a class called the Notions of Space in Philosophy last year to very eager Bachelor and Master students from many disciplines. My aim was to understand in detail Kant's notion of space, as not a concept but intuition. It went beyond that where each student having been influenced in a different way from each philosopher. and I got beautiful definitions for space from many students. However, it was a big challenge to understand it.  At the end, we ended up more confused rather than knowing what it is. Then I got what Kant meant, not by reading him over and over-which I did as well, but by not being able to understand what exactly space was. You cannot really get what space is as a concept, this is among the things you cannot conceptualize! You can only have an intuition of it, or maybe feel it.

 But, but, not only understanding is hard or impossible, intuiting or feeling it is also a BIG challenge. Can you feel the space between YOU and your emotion and thought when you are angry? Can you see , feel, intuit the space between your computer screen and your eyes? This became my fun game for my practice of presence. One of the beautiful side effect of this game is that your body loves it since you manage to empty your mind and integrate spontaneous meditation to your everyday life. Do you try to feel the space? Do you have your own methods?

Photos from weekends where I feel a lot of space... We carry our dining table to the bedroom to have more sun, turn our faces to it, and chew delightfully our delicious food.


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Gecen yil, "felsefede mekan/uzay/bosluk (Inglizcesi tek kelime space) kavramlari" diye bir cok farkli bolumden master ve lisans ogrencilerine bir ders verdim. Amacim Kant'in uzay/mekan kavramini, kavram olarak degil de bir sezgi olarak tanimlamasini anlamakti. Ancak bu amactan otelere gittik ve her ogrenci bir baska filozoftan etkilenip kendilerine gore cok guzel tanimlar buldular uzay/mekan icin. Buna ragmen kafamiz donemin sonunda iyice karisti uzay hakkinda. Ve farkettik ki belki de bu kavrami anlamak mumkun degil. O zaman iste Kant'in ne demek istedigini anladim. Bu sadece hissedebilecegimiz ve kavramsallastiramayacagimiz seyler dunyasina ait bir olgu.

 Ama, uzayi/ mekani/ alani/ boslugu hissetmek kolay mi peki? Kizdiginda hissettigin duygunun, dusuncenin ve SENIN arandaki alani hissedebiliyor musun?Bilgisayar ekrani ile gozlerin arasindaki boslugu gorebiliyor musun, hissedebiliyor musun? Bu benim sevdigim eglenceli bir oyun haline geldi son zamanlarda, bedenimdeki varligimi hissetme egzersizlerimde. Vucudumuz bu mekan hissine bayiliyor, cunku zihin biraz duruyor, sadece zihini kullanarak ve kavramlastirarak yasadigimiz hayattan cikip baska bir hissi de yasiyoruz... Agacin, elin, bacagin icindeki yasami canlliligi hissederek... Yasadigimiz durumlar ile  kendim  arasindaki alani hissederek... Bu da kendiliginden kolayca ortaya cikan bir meditasyon sagliyor. Sizin de alani, boslugu, uzayi, mekani hissetme egzersiziniz var mi? Nasil metodlar kullaniyorsunuz? Sifalandiginizi hissediyor musnuz? Ya da degisimi farkediyor musunuz?


Fotograflar, haftasonlarindaki gunesli gunlerimizden, benim alani/mekani bol bol hissetme imkanini daha da buldugum zamanlardan. Gunes olunca masamizi yatak odasina tasiyip uzun kahvaltimizi, yuzumuzu guneste isitik, agzimizdakinin tadina daha bir vararak yapiyoruz.

Slightly stopping by Prague

Missed writing the blog, playing with the image sizes, taking more time for uploading photos than FB. Our time in Prague was laid back, comparative, thoughtful, drunken, too sober and all these things would not go together. We liked it. It was freezing and we were spending each half an hour in a gift shop just to bring our body temperatures to slightly above the vital levels. Thanks for having us Karlova. Photos: Me trying to ground as always, and he- leaving his handprints on the movie history - it was a very pretty light installation. Cafe Grand Orient nice desert and coffee, interesting waiters. Charles Bridge. Vlata river.