an order just for me..via here: some people can be obsessively tidy, by some people

I mean me I guess, especially under stress, can color coordinate my books, folders,

clothes etc.. no not that bad... well sometimes maybe that bad..

and a quota I needed desperately today:

"we show up, burn brightly, live passionately, hold nothing back, and when the

moment is over, when our work is done, we step back and let go." - rolf gates .

.via here

feeling extremely non-productive and an outsider, I hate the fact that my German is

still not fluent  to carry on a lively conversation with the academia here..

after a year I am still not fluent, that just makes me extremely down.. and I am still

struggling with the same parts in my thesis, and this is depressing, reaaaally depressing...

also extended the wrong books and now have to go and pay

a fine in the library,  today is really hurting...and my allergies are back...